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Shambhala Music and Lyrics

Music by The Truthsayers

Lyrics by L. M. McDermott
Music by Baylor Maggenti

At War with Myself


Chorus 1

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.
I’m at war with myself,
Fightin’ every
Thought that comes my way.

When I know it’s white,
My head says no, it’s black,
Or it could be gray.
When I tell myself to zig, then
I tell myself, “I should’ve
Zagged the other way.”

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.

Verse 1

I debate and second guess
Every move that I make. I
Harshly judge myself,
Bemoan, belittle, and berate

I’m always saying one thing,
Then doing another. While
Giving voice to one side,
I’m siding with the other.

I am at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.

Repeat Chorus

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.
I’m at war with myself,
Fightin’ every
Thought that comes my way.

When I know it’s white,
My head says no, it’s black,
Or it could be gray.
When I tell myself to zig, then
I tell myself, “I should’ve
Zagged the other way.”

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.

Verse 2

I fight this silent war,
Fearin’ I’ll never be free,
‘Cause I grew up with all this
Hypocrisy.

But the worst of it all,
I am enraged to admit,
Is that now I’ve become the
Hypocrite.

Yes, I’m at war with myself,
Taking issue with
Everything I say.

Chorus

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.
I’m at war with myself,
Fightin’ every
Thought that comes my way.

When I know it’s white,
My head says no, it’s black,
Or it could be gray.
When I tell myself to zig, then
I tell myself, “I should’ve
Zagged the other way.”

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.

Verse 3

I try to silence my mind, and
It gets noisier.
But, if I shut my mouth, my
Mind gets quieter.

Hypocrisy is silenced
From the outside in.
I gotta shut my mouth,
If I want to win.

I’m at war with myself,
Taking issue with
Everything I say.

Chorus

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.
I’m at war with myself,
Fightin’ every
Thought that comes my way.

When I know it’s white,
My head says no, it’s black,
Or it could be gray.
When I tell myself to zig, then
I tell myself, “I should’ve
Zagged the other way.”

I’m at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.

Verse 4

Focus on what I do,
Not what I decree,
I find myself standing
With Integrity.

I was a Hypocrite until I
Learned one day to
Focus on what I do,
Not what I say.

Chorus 2

I was at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with
Everything I say.
I was at war with myself,
Fightin’ every
Thought that came my way.

When I knew it was white,
My head said no, it’s black,
Or it could be gray.
When I told myself to zig, then
I told myself, “I should’ve
Zagged the other way.”

I was at war with myself,
Takin’ issue with everything I say.

Music and Lyrics Copyright © 2011 Forerunner Publications